Unrepentant and bemused

By

Y K

Dark and cold, I lie bare
You are here, but you don’t care
Lying alone, an offering I make
Answer this and me you can take

Tell me, who am I?
I have failed, can you try?
My birth brought, many a smiles
Would my departure, yield any cries?

I have wondered, this about me
The answer, would it set me free?
Trapped in here, I have lain
Battled with myself, wishing to be slain

What was my purpose? Ask I may,
Life and such was my everyday
Son I was, for not my family
The father in me, cared not for any

They said, I loved my country
In the name of which I killed many
Shield my eyes, I did never
For the bodies that burnt in my power

Mind you, human I was 
Even if I, never did pause
Screams I heard, all the way
I still do, it never faded away

I did smile at the bloom of spring
Catch the rain, that wet the ghetto ring
Stare up above, at the stars and beyond
Wished for a sleep, without the haunt

Regret, I never did ever
But to this question, I would like an answer
Tell me, was it my destiny?
As I stand to face my death penalty

They say, today is the day
Rest in peace, shall many in their grave
And as this life of calm leaves me in disquiet,
I still seek an answer to this state of riot  

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